Feeling Excited

I decided to talk to my 15 year old daughter yesterday about my decision to have weight loss surgery.  She is actually my step daughter, but she lives with me and my husband and she calls me Mom.  But anyway back to the story.  I went to pick her up from a friends house yesterday and she wanted a smoothie so we stopped to get one and sat outside on a picnic table.  We first started chatting about her upcoming 16th birthday party.  But then I told her about starting the process to have the surgery.  She was so excited that she was almost in tears.  I had no idea what a burden my weight had put on her.  She has been worried about me, worried that I won't be around for a long time.  Even though she didn't say this I am sure the other kids at her school have mentioned or she has probably overheard them say stuff about my weight.  I am positively elated that she is so supportive and happy about my decision.

This evening at 5:30 my BFF and I will attend the weight loss seminar at Georgetown Hospital.  I am excited to get more and updated information.  They said they could get started on my paperwork once I attend the session and I have already submitted my paperwork via email.  I know that weight loss surgery will not completely change my life and won't make me completely happy.  But I feel that it will change certain aspects of my life.  I am so excited to be on this journey and so happy to have so much support.  Here's to the new me...

I tried...but enough is enough

I tried over and over again to lose the weight, but it kept creeping back up on me.  I am now officially 303.8 and ready for my struggle with weight to be over.  I have applied to Georgetown Community Hospital to have Bariatric Surgery.  I am so excited to announce that I completed my paperwork (all 37 pages of it) and have sent it in the center.  My BFF is attending the informational session with me on Monday night and then after that they can get to work on my paperwork.  Words can't express how I feel right not.  I am really excited, a little nervous and extremely hopeful.  I have opted to talk to the surgeon about the Gastric Sleeve, it is less complex than the Gastric Bypass.  With the sleeve they take out 85% of your stomach, but there is no re-routing of your intestines, whch means you don't have the vitamin and mineral defiencies that you would have in the bypass.  I have researched this a lot and am confident this is what I want to do.  I have spoken with some of my family (my husband and mother-in-law) and they are very supportive.  My mother-in-law is a CRNA and she knows people at the facility which makes her feel better. 

I like to be organized so I have made a binder with the weight loss surgery manual and also a copy of my application and any email correspondance from the center.  It makes me feel in control, I dislike very much when things are out of control.

I am currently working to pass my Registered Dietitian's exam (yes I will be an RD and yes that is real weight up there).  But I know I won't feel confident enough about myself to apply for any jobs until I lose the weight.  I decided late into college to be an RD and mostly because I had issues with food and thought if I learn everything there is to know about food, I will never have to worry about my weight again (boy was I wrong).  I was a little overweight in college maybe 10-20 pounds and I of course then I thought I was enormous, what I wouldn't give to weigh that now. 

The people I have talked to at the Georgetown Bariatric Center have all been very helpful and extremely supportive.  I don't know exactly how long this process will take, but I am excited to take you on this journey with me. 

All I ask of those reading my blog is that you leave no negative comments concerning my current weight and the fact that I am going to be a Registered Dietitian.  Any comments concerning the surgery or outcomes are completely welcome.

A Fresh Start...

Like most people this isn't my first rodeo when it comes to losing weight, but it is the first time I feel like I can truly succeed.  Why you might ask;  it is because God is on my side and my family and friends are here to support me.  I am so excited to learn more about the Weight Watchers 360 program, from what I understand it actually deals with some of the reasons we eat or crave certain foods.  Well Weight Watchers I think you may have  finally hit the nail on the head with this plan.  For most people who  need to lose weight or have issues with food we don't just eat because we are hungry we eat because  we have emotions or memories tied to certain foods or places!  I know that I eat when I am bored or when I am nervous or even when I am happy and celebrating.  My main issue I feel is that I have what my doctor believes to be Night Eating Syndrome, which basically means you consume about half of your calories from dinner on,  it can also mean that you wake up and sleep eat (you get up and eat during the night and you don't even know that you are doing it).  It makes it so difficult to lose or even maintain weight whenever this is going on.  They don't have an exact cause for why this happens, but I know for me it started when I started in college when I was under a large amount of stress.  Stress may be the cause, but because I am always under so much stress that it never gets any better.  Anyway I am going to figure this out because I want to lose weight and want to be healthy.  My family doctor is trying to help me out with this issue.  

Hope you all have a blessed night and until next time....